April 14, 2013
As honesty and mood-tracking month rolls on, I'm starting to experience the nice, cleansing feeling that accompanies late spring. I'm so looking forward to seeing the sun again -- I think it's come out today, after several freezing nights, and it means I have no excuse but to take myself for a run. Hehe.
I have no horrendous truth confessions for you. I'm hoping this is because deep down I don't care what others think about me as much as I thought I did. But maybe that cavalier comment is in itself an exposure of my caring. Hmm.
-Exercise: I give myself a B in this area. I haven't been avoiding exercise per sae -- I've done some yoga videos, I've discovered a new activity to look forward to (Walk-N-Talk Wednesdays with KatKow!), and I've been trying to walk places more often. That being said, I haven't been for a real run in God knows how long -- not even to break in my new shoes! Considering my post-dinner diet last night consisted of Fireball/Limoncello cocktails, wine, and chocolate chip cookies, I've got some abstaining to do today....
-Shampoo: Truth be told, I'm not totally pleased with my hair project. It's been just a little over a month now, and my scalp still seems relatively greasy. I miss the chemically fruity-floral-herbal smells of commercial shampoo, and I'm tired of everyone having the same reaction when I boast about my venture: "Why??" I think I understand a little of what it must feel like to be a vegetarian.
-Cooking: I made the most delicious quinoa stir-fry yesterday -- found on the lovely Tastespotting. See here.
-Moods: I feel like I've been handling them better! Reminding myself that I determine my level of positivity throughout the day has really helped. It's not to say I haven't had down spells, but they feel a lot more in my control since I really started taking account of my triggers and voicing my thoughts more pointedly.
-Monologues: I haven't written about this yet, but I've been working on some new material to add to my repertoire. It's not easy! I've never had so much trouble committing to memorizing before, and I think it's because I've always had an empty space to do it in until now. It's weird when your housemates can hear you talking to yourself about "my mistress" and "periwigs" and "out of love with thee."
Okay, folks. That's all for now. April is such a weird month. On the one hand I feel completely motivated/excited about everything in my life right now. On the other, I feel lost/confused/tired.
Ergo, I know it's time to stop analyzing things too much; power down the laptop, put on some Johnny Cash, go for a run, take a shower, and get down to business.
Canchya see? I'm learning.